Sunday, November 14, 2010
♥ Food for thought.
Not sure what got into me, could be the holiday, or maybe just loneliness that I've decided to try meeting new people and of course, catch up with those already in my life. I'm more of stay at home kind of person and I recharge by having my alone time. Going out sometimes seems like a hassle to me and not to forget, tiring.
Guess that why I'm abit of a erm.. loner. T____T
So much so that my mum actually got worried. She seriously think I have no friends. fml. So anyway, yeah having so much activities in a week is definitely new to me and the old me would have refused the invitations in horror but I'm going to give it a try. You know, come out of my shell a little bit.
Geesh, I sound like I live in a cave. On a totally random note, I find myself silly happy this few days. Motivated and just generally in a good mood. I tried playing my guitar and my fingers hurts like a bitch right now by the way. Oh and I refuse to cut my nails because I simply adore my nails so you can imagine the erm.. noise (yeah I wont even call it music -_-) I made every time I'm with the guitar.
However.
My mood always goes downhill whenever I listen to "White Lies" written by Jennifer Chung. Somehow, the lyrics struck home and it fits what I was feeling about someone in so many ways.
I started thinking about yesterday,
And all the plans that we had made
Wanted so bad to talk to you
But I knew what I had to do.
I put down the phone and let it go
'Cause I knew that my voice would reveal my soul.
I tossed & turned 'till I fell asleep
Hoping you would meet me in my dreams.
You bruised my heart
Nothing's broken it's just done
of having careless complications,
teaching itself to become numb
It's afraid to feel
'Cause what it once thought was real
Was a false note prettied with designs.
They were all just white lies.
What came so fast left as easily
Though we tried to work things carefully.
Intentions were good we had our fun
but for the best said that we were done
No one even knew what we were up to
But how could they understand what was me and you?
When I don't even know for sure myself.
This song is my cry for help.
You bruised my heart
Nothing's broken it's just done
of having careless complications,
teaching itself to become numb
It's afraid to feel
'Cause what it once thought was real
Was a false note prettied with designs.
They were all just white lies.
I was never yours,
You were never mine.
When we met it wasn't right.
The stars never aligned.
It was time for you to go.
It was the middle of May
We both knew it was coming,
You were never meant to stay.
I felt that what we had was special and it was a pity to let it go. How sad and true that what came so fast left as easily. Than again, things happen. I'll live. I'll be fine. Everything's.. okay. My heart needs just a little more time for the bruises to fade away. That's all. (: Till then.
Labels: Emo-ish Crap, Photo at the moment
