Tuesday, November 23, 2010
♥ Meh. Ignore my whines. Happy post soon.
I'm feeling a little bothered, insecure. I'm not gonna lie, I don't like this feeling. At all. I can't help thinking about what you said. It stung rather badly knowing it was a test. To prove what I wonder. What's the point of it? Did it really meant nothing?
I wonder why you would tell me so easily. Cause now whenever you say something nice, I can't help wondering if it's really what you feel or it's just because you're baiting me. That's why sometimes my response was silence. Is that nice sensitive company a lie?
Sometimes I feel like such a fool.I didn't want to doubt and question but there are times when I felt like you want me to. Why do you say things knowing I'll get hurt? If you truly did care for someone, wont you NOT want to hurt her? Why is it you can't even give me a simple promise not to bolt? It's almost like you making a wedding vow and saying I can't promise I won't cheat but I'll try.
I said I can go through anything as long as there security. But there's really none. Everytime I got something tiny that I could feel better with, you took it away. Why is it that you don't mention about your past with your ex and isn't pessimistic but you can't be that way with me? Why do you love them so much and be there for them but it feels like you'll go anytime?
So many questions in my head. I wish you won't mention about your ex cause I'm already insecure. I wish you'll promise to stay and commit. Try isn't good enough. I wish you won't hurt me with words. That's cruel. I wish you meant everything you said when you say something nice. I wish you're afraid of losing me. I wish to be your last relationship. I wish that I won't be disappointed. I wish that you won't give up so easily. I wish you have more faith in us.
.. I wish you'll love me.
Haha to the rest of you, don't ask me what happen. Just something random. My mind isn't cooperating and refuse to stop thinking abt weird stuff. Need somewhere to vent, afterall I have feelings too. I guess I'm not as strong as I thought I am. Screw mood swings. This year really isn't a good year for me. Oh well.
I wonder why you would tell me so easily. Cause now whenever you say something nice, I can't help wondering if it's really what you feel or it's just because you're baiting me. That's why sometimes my response was silence. Is that nice sensitive company a lie?
Sometimes I feel like such a fool.I didn't want to doubt and question but there are times when I felt like you want me to. Why do you say things knowing I'll get hurt? If you truly did care for someone, wont you NOT want to hurt her? Why is it you can't even give me a simple promise not to bolt? It's almost like you making a wedding vow and saying I can't promise I won't cheat but I'll try.
I said I can go through anything as long as there security. But there's really none. Everytime I got something tiny that I could feel better with, you took it away. Why is it that you don't mention about your past with your ex and isn't pessimistic but you can't be that way with me? Why do you love them so much and be there for them but it feels like you'll go anytime?
So many questions in my head. I wish you won't mention about your ex cause I'm already insecure. I wish you'll promise to stay and commit. Try isn't good enough. I wish you won't hurt me with words. That's cruel. I wish you meant everything you said when you say something nice. I wish you're afraid of losing me. I wish to be your last relationship. I wish that I won't be disappointed. I wish that you won't give up so easily. I wish you have more faith in us.
.. I wish you'll love me.
Haha to the rest of you, don't ask me what happen. Just something random. My mind isn't cooperating and refuse to stop thinking abt weird stuff. Need somewhere to vent, afterall I have feelings too. I guess I'm not as strong as I thought I am. Screw mood swings. This year really isn't a good year for me. Oh well.
Labels: Emo-ish Crap
